I'm back from my trip to Edmonton.
it was great.
The girl's 18th birthday was cool.
darn the rich. They had all the cotillion and stuff done.
shhheeeshhh. i musta lost my mind when i stoop up in the dance floor after about and hour sitting down trying to keep in low profiled.,
after i got pulled in by Tito Dennis to dance to some really weird mixes of songs. i was in there! with just probably 10 other people!
like what the soiled napkins was i thinking, grinding and shuffling out there?!
i lost it.i didn't even drink.
but i just lost it. i never actually thought of dancing like that in front of so many people!
*slaps face*

oh well. it was just weird and LUCKY, it's over. cause hell knows what i'm doing. i don't even dare look at the videos taken just in case i barf and roll over it looking at myself getting down.

we went to some chinese restaurant yesterday. it was cool :]
after so many days, i finally got to savor on some delicious Asian delicacies.
then we're off to West Edmonton Mall.
it was once the biggest mall in the world.
They have a HUGE pool complex with all the slide and gigantic wave pool.
Skating rinks, sea lions, imax theater.
plus China town and all major brands like Coach, Old Navy...
surprisingly, coach is actually CHEAP in Canada.
it was cool there.

We then went to some house gatherings. It was great...
there was this cute little baby :D

i know. i suck but i HAVE to rant. and when you're on msn about me and my cousing. i'll never shut up! this is what i told angela;

[Brianne] ♥ surviving on nitroglycerin ♥ LOVERSLOVELIARSLIE says:
i cant stand my cousin
[Brianne] ♥ surviving on nitroglycerin ♥ LOVERSLOVELIARSLIE says:
she's a bitch
[Brianne] ♥ surviving on nitroglycerin ♥ LOVERSLOVELIARSLIE says:
she needs so much attention
[Brianne] ♥ surviving on nitroglycerin ♥ LOVERSLOVELIARSLIE says:
like geez
Angela says:
oh i read your blog
Angela says:
she's 13 right?
[Brianne] ♥ surviving on nitroglycerin ♥ LOVERSLOVELIARSLIE says:
uh huh
Angela says:
yeah my god
Angela says:
what else did she doHAHA
[Brianne] ♥ surviving on nitroglycerin ♥ LOVERSLOVELIARSLIE says:
i hate her
[Brianne] ♥ surviving on nitroglycerin ♥ LOVERSLOVELIARSLIE says:
my mom thinks she's good just cuz she like to entertain my youngestbrother
[Brianne] ♥ surviving on nitroglycerin ♥ LOVERSLOVELIARSLIE says:
like you know make all the baby voice shit
[Brianne] ♥ surviving on nitroglycerin ♥ LOVERSLOVELIARSLIE says:
like ewww
[Brianne] ♥ surviving on nitroglycerin ♥ LOVERSLOVELIARSLIE says:
i wanna get back at her
[Brianne] ♥ surviving on nitroglycerin ♥ LOVERSLOVELIARSLIE says:
she's a pest you know seriously
Angela says:
HAAH TRY IGNORING HER
[Brianne] ♥ surviving on nitroglycerin ♥ LOVERSLOVELIARSLIE says:
like just now we were in mcdonalds and my brother and i were talking about the stuff we love about singapore. like swearing at your friends and they'll just laugh or beating up people or even sharing drinks with your friends she was going all " ewww lucky i moved out of singapore"
[Brianne] ♥ surviving on nitroglycerin ♥ LOVERSLOVELIARSLIE says:
i was like FUCK OFF BITCH!
Angela says:
HUH
Angela says:
WTH
[Brianne] ♥ surviving on nitroglycerin ♥ LOVERSLOVELIARSLIE says:
]like seriously!? my brother was like " lucky you moved out cuz we dint like you! NO BODY LIKES YOU! in her face that skanky bitch
[Brianne] ♥ surviving on nitroglycerin ♥ LOVERSLOVELIARSLIE says:
like wtf right?!
[Brianne] ♥ surviving on nitroglycerin ♥ LOVERSLOVELIARSLIE says:
-_-\
[Brianne] ♥ surviving on nitroglycerin ♥ LOVERSLOVELIARSLIE says:
no she just came in the room asking me if i saw the later
[Brianne] ♥ surviving on nitroglycerin ♥ LOVERSLOVELIARSLIE says:
*lighter
[Brianne] ♥ surviving on nitroglycerin ♥ LOVERSLOVELIARSLIE says:
i said no
[Brianne] ♥ surviving on nitroglycerin ♥ LOVERSLOVELIARSLIE says:
and she was like where is it?
[Brianne] ♥ surviving on nitroglycerin ♥ LOVERSLOVELIARSLIE says:
i was like i dont know
[Brianne] ♥ surviving on nitroglycerin ♥ LOVERSLOVELIARSLIE says:
and she was like i'm asking you where's the lighter
[Brianne] ♥ surviving on nitroglycerin ♥ LOVERSLOVELIARSLIE says:
and i was like i told you i dont know
[Brianne] ♥ surviving on nitroglycerin ♥ LOVERSLOVELIARSLIE says:
i think one day i'll scream at her telling her to FUCK OFF
Angela says:
HAHAHAAHAHA
Angela says:
SCREAM AT HER
Angela says:
THEN WRITE A FUCK OFF SIGN
Angela says:
AND DO HAND SIGNALS TO FUCK OFF
Angela says:
HAHA IN CASE SHE DIDNT SEE
[Brianne] ♥ surviving on nitroglycerin ♥ LOVERSLOVELIARSLIE says:
hahahaha good idea! then i'll hand signal it and write it in 70 different languages
Angela says:
HAHA YEAH
Angela says:
and in case she doesnt get all of that
Angela says:
record it or smth
Angela says:
HAHAHA

like seriously i dont know what's her problem but she's such a phony bitch!
she's such a fake ass bitch.

like we were in Mc D's and my brother and i were talking about our wonderful life in Singapore.
like the stuff we live and love...
like sharing drinks with friends, swearing at our friends in a jokingly manner and stuff.
she was all judgemental about that.
WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU!?
geez!
then we were at jumbo and she was reading the horoscope thingy. she said something about some horoscope being sexually attractive or something. And she was being all EWWW about it -_-.
then my brother was like say what?
i was like oh she said that the blah blah blah has got sex appeal.
then she went ballistic! like she was out of her mind.
i was like what's wrong with talking about sex? or saying sex appeal?
she was like "you're not suppose to have sex until you're married"
i was like "i'm not even doing sex?!
you wont even be here without sex"
my brother was "its illegal to have sex underage but its not illegal to talk about it"

i was like so pissed.
and she tries so hard to make herself funny!? like that time, the song kiss me by sixpence none the richer, she made a blooper about it and it was funny. and now she keeps doing it so mny times its just annoying.
like seriously!
i just want to slap her so hard till she grows out of it!! GRRR. she's messing my mental health! LIKE TOTALLLY!
i cant stand it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
alll the IMMATURE things she's doing is drivng me wild!


*breathes*

so anyways, the 2 and a half journey from edmonton to red deer got me thinking about ALL the guys i've dated. which got me back to the furthest. where i was 13 and love was all innocent.
alot of you know him cause i devoted most of my blog post on him. day in and day out.
but we're not even talking now.
he doesn't even know i left.
now i'm thinking if i should have said something better than "good luck"
when he said " i want my girlfriend to be exactly like you".
its all in the pass. i can't dwell what i had in the pass forever.

oh and lastly.
please do write me some letters :] cuz i dont have friends. HAHA
i'll reply i promise.
cause i'm too lazy to get around to it. i need to reply to something.
i'll love you many many many if you do :D
purdy purdy pleaasseee :}}


Thank yous;

thank you Lynette and shu min for the 9 and 8 years of friendship. i miss the lepaking-malay-speaking-hardcore-dancing-tummy-aching-moments we share.
i love you
Thank you shakira for being there when no one is. i miss the times where we'll hang out at TM,just the two of us and buy weird and random things with YOUR money. mostly i miss the times you fetch me from my table :]
i love you
Thank you Samantha for being a good friend. i know we haven't been friends for a long time but it's great knowing you. all the shitty projects we got and singalong moments and lauging time with rekha's scary pics in her phone during camp. or when you love singing "simple starving to be safe" to me. and your handwriting! GRRR
i love you
thank you David for being the best best friend ever. i know i've not been all the best i've been towards you. but know that i now appreciate your love and support since we met.
i will always care about you :}
i love you
Thank you Angela and Natalie for being there. we met in camp and we loved each other's company. and just this pass year, all of us came under student leader pillar and it was awesome! i miss the times we talked about church people :]
i love you
Thank you Arin and Klary for being the best laugh! we had the time of our lives just knowing each other during sec 1.it was the greatest! i miss the times we do stupid things!
i love you
Thank you Oli cheng for being a motherly friend. you still freak me out sometimes but you're awesome :]
thank you cheryl toh and bimbo group for letting me hang there when i had no one.
i love you
Thank you krittika for giving me a tough love approach about the guys that hurted me in the pass. i'll always remember.
i love you
Thank you Fabian for being such a lovable boy. you're so weird it freaks me sometimes. you love hardcore and you love people!
i love you
Thank you Timothy for being a silly friend. i know you're great.
i love you
Thank you Kenrick for all the years of young innocent smitten
i love you
Thank you julie and zee for a wonderful time on saturday till i killed my ankle :[]
i love you
Thank you Sakinah for being there that day to see me. I'm always here to help you. i hope it's better with you and your brother.
i love you
Thank you Xinyi for going out on that saturday but i couldn't make it due to stupid injuries.
i love you
Thank you Amanda, Daphlyn and Steffi for making my last few lessons memorable and enjoyable in church.
i love you
thank you Jessica and the group for being so warm and cuddly. i miss hugging you in school
i love you
thank you Nicole for being a super enthusiastic pal :]
i love you
Thank you Mervyn for being understanding. Beneath it all, i know you're a really great guy.I owe you so much for teaching me all that i've never found in me. all the feelings i can't verbalize. You have alot of good things ahead of you. i know you're not the kind to tell your feelings but i know you're troubled sometimes.i still care. i hope i could understand you better.
thank you for buying me my last Malibu dream drink. its memorable.
i love you
and thank you too all those i forgot to mention. Doesn't mean your name isnt here means i've forgotten all the moment we had.
THANK YOU!