Electric heartbeats

Hey =)

2010-08-30T04:39:00.001-06:00

Hello (:

Ask me anything

tangina ka! pak u!

2010-08-26T19:03:00.001-06:00

That's scary.
I know who you are. So you should just reply my msg instead on hiding behind formspring.

Ask me anything

MAHAL NA MAHAL KITA <3

2010-08-23T21:42:00.001-06:00

Ang tanong ay, mahal ba kita?
Shet! Siempre! Mahal na mahal, nagmumura na! Hahaha I love you too babe

Ask me anything

whatcha doing!?

2010-08-21T00:46:00.001-06:00

Talking to rickie. And you?

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HELLLLOOOOOOOO:) DO U LOVE THARSHINI? N Y?

2010-08-19T12:44:00.001-06:00

Tharshini is fucken amazing! How not to love! She's the epitome of a great friendship!

Ask me anything

Who's the most unforgettable person you've ever met? (NOT A FAMILY MEMBER, RELATIVES, OR FRIENDS)

2010-08-18T19:46:00.001-06:00

Kenrick
The guy I first loved. Hahaha

Ask me anything

If everybody is against us but you know I'm fighting for you and us. what would you do? would you fight with me or just let everybody win?

2010-08-17T23:48:00.001-06:00

Of course I'd fight for us to be together.
What would love be if others have a say of who we choose to love?

Ask me anything

Who's jealous ;)

2010-08-13T17:21:00.003-06:00

AHAHA >:)

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PLAYYYYUUUHH

2010-08-13T17:21:00.001-06:00

;)

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Hi (:

2010-08-13T17:20:00.001-06:00

eh, flood me, you're very intellectually stimulating and witty (:

Ask me anything

Can u ask me questions ?!

2010-08-13T17:18:00.001-06:00

me laaaaa Brigitte!
FLOOOD ME!

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are you in love with someone?

2010-08-13T06:44:00.001-06:00

I might be. But I\'m still a little afraid of the current situation. I don\'t wanna say it for certain but I probably am starting to inch my way back in the scene after a tough year(:

Ask me anything

Chocolate or Vanilla?

2010-08-12T09:30:00.001-06:00

Vanilla

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What's your bra size?

2010-08-06T12:13:00.001-06:00

The size of your ego, pervert

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all 0f u prefer 'RAIFAN' or 'EPAN' ... ?? ;)

2010-08-06T02:01:00.001-06:00

Raifan for meeee

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am i a guy tat ppl easily think tat im a type of guy tat like to hurt ppl ? hmm ... :(

2010-08-05T09:23:00.001-06:00

I don\'t know, well are you?

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am i a guy tat ppl easily think tat i like t0 hurt ppl ? hmm ... :(

2010-08-05T09:22:00.001-06:00

I can\'t tell just by looking.

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who's YOU? :P

2010-08-05T09:20:00.001-06:00

You as in rickielynn Ann, you!

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just answer the question :)

2010-08-04T22:06:00.001-06:00

You
Ni
Nous
Ikaw
Ti
Kamu
;)

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who does ur heart beat for right now? :P

2010-08-04T20:12:00.001-06:00

Is that even a question? ;)

Ask me anything

Love me

2010-06-08T17:04:00.000-06:00

Keyshia Cole - I Changed My Mind

2010-04-23T14:38:00.000-06:00

2010-04-08T13:11:00.002-06:00

All this time i thought i wasn't good enough for you. When really, You'll never be good enough for me.

I'm not a door mat or a toy.
I'm a person.
I live, i breath, i hurt, i cry,
i laugh, i sing, and someday
i'll die.

But If love is something a person cannot give you,
they are the ones that will never ever be good enough for you to settle upon.

2010-04-08T12:15:00.001-06:00

I LOVE YOU GUYS (:

2010-03-28T15:23:00.002-06:00

Its been forever! i haven't been updating cause my life is just pretty mundane.
Nothing has been that much fun or disastrous.

Well, i'm just gonna get this going.

man, i dont know. i cant even think anymore. blogging is such a task.
I lost the "talent" in which to do so.

i swear, i'm either crazy or i'm just numb. Cant even cry no more.
Its like slowly but surely, i'm tending a heart... made of stone.

till i actually have something to say...

memoirs

2010-02-25T17:12:00.003-07:00

What can i do?
He wasn't mine.
He isn't mine.
And he'll never be mine.
I can't keep myself in this place where i'm hurting and dying on the inside and you have no idea. you dont care.
Why should you? i'm nothing to you.
I'm just that thing you use when you need to relieve yourself
i'm just that thing you talk to when there's no one else
I'm just that thing you associate with when no one's looking
I'm just that thing.
I shouldn't be but i'm still hoping.
Hoping till the day you realise, i'm a person.
Not a toy, not a diary, not a punching bag, not entertainment.

2010-01-12T17:42:00.000-07:00

I WILL NOT FALL INLOVE IN THE YEAR 2010

2010-01-07T17:58:00.001-07:00

Nobody wins when you're filled with envy.

Posted in
TUMBLRRR! ♥

2010-01-05T17:15:00.001-07:00

I'm currently on
www.electricbrix.tumblr.com

Highschool

2009-12-23T14:29:00.002-07:00

When i was in Singapore, i always imagined highschool was so cool, all the hot people and stupid streotypes in the movies, but once you've been in this "western world" highschool, You'll realise its all just wrong.

I've nothing against my school or anyone in particular. i'm poiting out the habits and the ridicule lifestyle of students as a whole.

They always say that highschool is the best years you'll ever experience. I beg to differ. Maybe when i look back to my previous years of highschool in Singapore, i met a lot of awesome people that i'll never ever forget. Experiences in my life i built upon love and happiness with those people.
What happened when i moved?

I entered my first year of high school in Canada in November 2009. I was shy and i was getting to know how this all worked out. It got a little easier i'd say when i've gotten to know some people.

Year 11 was a big break through, i'm now 16 and i've experienced changes in my life. 1 year away from Asian ambience and i'm somewhat used to the western living. From what i'm come up with high school is more influencial than you think. If you can't control yourself, i bet you are gonna go down that line and wished you hadn't done it.

High school is about a place of study. Once and awhile, a little fun is ok, but what has it become?
i'm not saying all of each person in the student body is accountable for such behaviour but there are some out there.
IT WOULDN'T BE AN INSULT IF IT WASN'T A FACT.

Boys go to school being all impressive scooping girls and scoring in bed. We all know when we say "the hottest guy in school" and you'd probably think he's the biggest jerk. You can't blame them if that's the reputation you build for yourself.
Guys alone aren't the source of highschool anarchy traditions.
The biggest one would have to be the female counter part.
As much as you'd hate to admit it. GIRLS GO TO SCHOOL,SOME DRESSING LIKE SLUTS TO GET GUYS TO NOTICE THEM. once again, you wouldnt be offended if it wasnt true.
Its almost as if high school is a breeding place for unhealthy social events. i'm not saying being sociable is wrong but too much is too much.
You go to school feeling so insecure, you made so many enemies, you created such a bad name for yourself and worst of all you put yourself in an unnecessary situations you can't get yourself out of when what you're suppose to be doing is staying in school and doing what you're suppose to be doing.
Worst of all, this is a catholic school and all this animostity is happening?!
To be honest, its bullshit. It's about time we grow up. Its about time you stop going to school. to skip classes. its about time to stop going to school to check up on chicks and dudes and cry about how they've treated you.

i know for sure what i'm saying cause i've been through such a shitty time just in the start of year 11 and for once i'm not putting up with this childish nonsence.

2009-12-07T16:09:00.001-07:00

k, i dont care, i think Jake is the cutest boy ever :P

2009-12-05T17:47:00.003-07:00

I've got my head straight.

Studying (cause i need good grades and i'm smart)
Singing (cause it makes me happy)
Friends (cause some just matter more than the boy i went after)
limiting my text (WORD)
blogging (cause even though no one gives a damn, i still talk like a bitch)

WANTS A BLACK BOY! or a ginger.

2009-12-02T18:27:00.002-07:00

Today was a really good day (:
went to church and i was very very very enlightened.
i'm so sad i didnt catch the guy's name but he's an amazing preacher.

Laughed so hard i could hardly breath.

and yet i may miss you, buddy. ):

SIXTEEN

2009-11-30T17:11:00.002-07:00

When you were a lot younger, you thought being 16 was going to be amazing. Being 16 meant freedom, liberty to dress how you want, talk how you want and seemingly have what you want. When we were younger, we were in such hurry to grow up. Wearing make up (even if we look like baby prostitutes), push up bras(i never had to stuff! HAH! beat that), high heel shoes. We strut like a model when we get new clothes (looking back, i never did any shit like that, i was a tomboy. YUCK! no fashion sense AT ALL WHATSOEVER! so disgusting).

SIDETRACKING [Look at me being all serious and its totally failing.]

Back to my topic, Before you reach 16, everyone paints a picture in your head that being 16 is one hellafa great big party. I guess if you chose that lifestyle, it is. But really, being 16 isn't sweet, not blissful most of the time. In fact, you get into a lot of decision making and dilemmas.

1. Body
You start to give shit about your body. Whether you like it or not, you care more about it then before. You tend to think everyone is looking at your ass/tits/nose/whichever body part you want when really, only drooling cheap men care to rudely notice it.

2. Sex
Seemed like everyone wanted it. I can't say much for what SEX really is to other teenagers, but to me, it was one thing i regret. Only cause it made me most vulnerable to issues that could have been easily avoided or at least get easily fixed. One thing i've also learned that its not all physical to me. As i said, i can't speak for any one but me, but its EMOTIONAL more than anything else. i don't asked to be understood or be backed up by this but really, it was the emotional rollercoaster that's got to be the breakthrough of my morals.

3. School
Seems like social life seems way more important than completing high school credits. I personally try to maintain my Honourable mention status(at least). I made it clear to myself i won't get distracted from nonsense until i get satisfactory grades. And what i mean by satisfactory is near perfect. i got very competitve with grades, good and bad i must say.
But with that aside, we spent most of hours in school, its pretty inevitable not to be influenced in some sort of ways, bad or good. For example, drugs, partying, alcohol. Its never always easy to get back to the right way.

4. Family
Being a teenager in a family isnt always that easy either, as much as we want to be free, we are not readily set free by our family. Friends, desires and whatnots always seem to get us between our family. It may seem like they're always contrasting what we want but i guess its only cause they have to be the one responsible for you. I can't say much about it cause i've yet to appreciate what they do for me.

5.Friends
what can else can i say? They pretty much see you everyday through your laughters, cries and bitchiness. Some friends are closer to you than others. I dont mean to be negative but you actually do like more friends than others. I have to admit that i do. But still, i try to the best to those i'm close to

6. Crushes/boyfriend/girlfriend
Love is the most we look for when we go to high school. it almost seems its the gas that runs our engine. But what more can i say about love? its pretty self explanatory. Love can either break us or make us. And still, i've yet to learn to pick myself up when i crumble.

Well, on the conclusion,
SIXTEEN JUST AINT THAT SWEET.

♥

2009-11-30T16:05:00.001-07:00

No matter how much i try i still think about you

2009-11-27T11:30:00.001-07:00

Isnt it just sad that you walked out when love was yours. And now you're all alone, drowning in your own misery. I'd say my misery needs company but looking at you miserable just made me better

its about time i stop falling for the bad boys

2009-11-26T18:28:00.001-07:00

I AM NOT INLOVE.

2009-11-23T19:47:00.001-07:00

I hate you so much.
leave me alone!

creepy convo

2009-11-18T18:12:00.003-07:00

Brigitte Anne

I HAVE MY PERIOOODDDDDD

17:26 person B

HAHAHAHAH

17:26Brigitte Anne

i love it!

MMM

HAHA

17:27 person B

why

17:28Brigitte Anne

cause i know i'm not pregs (:

17:29 person B

Awh

STOP HASING SEX

17:29Brigitte Anne

i already did!

17:33 person B

lol

17:34Brigitte Anne

haha

17:36 person B

17:36Brigitte Anne

ok im good now

17:38person B

awh

17:38Brigitte Anne

17:41person B

i neeeeeda get laid

17:42Brigitte Anne

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

go get some

17:45person B

NO ONE WANTS TO

17:46Brigitte Anne

*|*|*|* would do u HAHAHA

17:47person b

doubt

17:47Brigitte Anne

hahahaha

he's not gettting anymore from me

so he wont have a choice

17:49person b

hahahaa

17:49Brigitte Anne

but go get yourself a man

17:49person b

HARD

17:50Brigitte Anne

i know manzzzz

17:56person b

haha

17:57Brigitte Anne

oh well

i dont need getting laid

i'm happy being a single ass woman

17:57person b

me too but i neeeeeed some ass

17:58Brigitte Anne

AASSSS?!?

17:58person b

HAHAHA

18:00Brigitte Anne

oh well

18:00person b

hahahaha

18:03person b

HEY BRIGITTE

18:03Brigitte Anne

yes?

18:05person b

LETS HAVE SEX

18:06Brigitte Anne

18:07Brigitte Anne

18:07person b

Dang

18:07Brigitte Anne

haha

im a girl, we cant have sex (:

18:10person b

In my mind we can

18:11Brigitte Anne

OH MY!
you're drunk!

PS PERSON B IS A GIRL!!

person b doesnt not have the name starting with a b -_-

2009-11-18T16:31:00.002-07:00

You know how period suck?
what sucks more is when your period is late and you get all worried.
I've been paying a close attention to my mestrual cycle and i'm due on friday.
I'm starting to worry now [ wedenesday ] and its probably isnt the best idea because, stressing over it will probably make it later or whatnot. But honestly, its so annoying.

I had a shitty day, worrying about all this and i just decided to tell person &%&%*^ about it.
He was not even concern AT ALL. He had the cheek to laugh. and all that crap. Like fuck, you have no idea how bad this is and all you're doing is laughing like this is a joke. This isnt the first time. but i'll make sure it is the last.

You know who you are. Just quit it. You have no idea how it is to be someone's friend. Cause i can say now that you don't mean anything to me anymore. i've been there and i tried to be the best person i can. i made myself better just for you to see me, but you dont. And slowly, you are just turning me off, everyday, you become lower and lower of a person. I'm losing respect for you and one day i swear if you don't smarten up, you will get an earful and a slap in the school and you will know what it's like to be embarrased. Practice what you preach. stop calling me a whore cause the bigger whore is you for lying to me to get in my pants. And all the shit you tell me are seriously not appreciated.
if i were you, i'd learn to fuck off!

2009-11-17T17:38:00.000-07:00

I love wonder girls

ENOUGH SAID!

2009-11-13T18:10:00.001-07:00

a little prayer

2009-11-13T17:31:00.004-07:00

Dear Lord, Jesus Christ,
Everyday seems like a constant fight between right and wrong.
Recently, i've been making ALL the wrong choices and
i should be damned to hell for it.
I just wish for the guidance i used to have
the power and will to turn away from temptations,
the satisfaction that you will always provide for my needs.
And that you made me in the image of God.
I have failed to achieve purity and hope for forgiveness.
Lord i do solemnly ask to be pardoned again from my faults.
Spare the innocent from my delinquency.
i do not wish to further abuse my privillage.
Being human is not an excuse to commit sins,
being humans we have judgement to know what is just.
Being humans, we are given the knowledge to stand up to face the music.
But with the consequences too big to carry upon ones' shoulder, Please have mercy on me
and help me see the light again. I pray for your guidance in which will help me, and people around me to walk in the way of the light.
Mistakes are learnt only when consequences are placed upon. But please oh Lord,
I do petition for your greatest help to put my life back in its path.
I've gone astray and father, i want to come back home.
Where i belong, where love is abundant and troubles are distant.
With every word i type on this post marks my promise to be better, to treat the body you gave me with the respect it fully deserves and most importantly, to lead the life a christian youth should be living.
i am terribly repentant for my wrong doings.
through Jesus Christ your Son our Lord, Amen

yes, brigitte loves the wonder girls (:

2009-11-13T15:19:00.002-07:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vxIGJ7JohlE

I knew about this song cause when Penny came over to my house one day, he showed me the video. and at first i dint think it was funny.
My mom showed me this and i couldn't stop laughing. so funny. it got me hooked on the song from then on.

te quiero, mi amor

2009-11-09T17:56:00.004-07:00

It seems like i haven't blogged in forever.
Most and foremost, i'd like to say, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SERENA! though she never does read my post. But its so unfair! She gets to go to Disney land and see KAT VON D! That's just ridiculous and i'm pissed. pft.

School has been pretty bareable this week, considering that we only have 2 days of school. One down, one more to go :D

I think its been far more better than it was a few months back where i wasn't opening up to people. But i can say i have more friends now (:

I don't think i'm that much of a snob, i just walk around with a scared/confused/try-not-to-piss-anyone-off face.
Penny and Marinold said i look like a snob. But i guess its ok, cause I'M NOT!
Like come on, you don't wanna be smiling at someone who doesn't wanna smile back? It would just be awkward. Speaking of awkward, i was in the bus with Kayla and we happen to sit in perpendicular to these two girls, about a year younger than us? And the girl who appears to be indian or some exotic breed kept looking at me and Kayla obnoxiously. I had the urge to just tell her off. Like Dude, quit staring, and stop evesdropping on the conversaton. and the, there was this guy who was really odd, he had a tattoo of the superman logo on his FOREHEAD and he kept spitting on the floor. LIKE WTF!?! HONESTLY, speak about being just painly disgusting.

I haven't spoken to many of you guys in Singapore, so far, its only been Sonya and Lynette i've been speaking to fairly frequent. I honestly miss you guys! i'm planning on having a webcam session thursday my time. You guys can log on to skype, and look for brigitte.anne I'm sooo excited :D

Anyways, i've been ACING chinese! :D i'm having fun! hahah i know it's like the lowest level of chinese but still! i'm awesome.

Hmm, what else do i talk about? OH OH!! Valentine's day! i'm pretty excited for Valentine's day guys! Not because i have a date or anything but i'm planning something nice for my friends here in Canada. (sorry guys in Singapore, But i'll think of something to do for you guys too ((: )
I was planning to buy the chinese food box (the ones you see on tv, chinese take-outs) and putting candies/chocolates and letters (: I know for sure, i'm not getting a valentine and i believe everyone deserves to be loved on valentine's day. People should love me for this!! >:}

I just wanna know what it is like to be innocent. You know, like middle school love. You don't think

What do you do you to tell someone you love them? How far should you go to pursue a certain someone? How much must you hurt to know its enough? How many times must you make the same mistake for you to find out you wasted all that time for nothing?

2009-11-06T16:58:00.000-07:00

that was the fake eyelashes i was suppose to wear for halloween which i dint end up using ):

i might like you better if we slept together

2009-11-05T16:47:00.002-07:00

Who's to say my feelings for you is right or wrong, in my defence I held on strong. Hoping for love is my only vice, for your beauty is seen through my eyes. To say forever I'd wait would be a lie, this shall mark as your final goodbye.

halloween

2009-11-02T16:58:00.002-07:00

[i know, FAT ARMS!]

Its really been a while since i've been on but i havent got much to say.
well i only have like so little pictures from halloween and i was a scene girl :}
people weren't getting it cause they thought i was scene to begin with. hahah

wont you lie to me lie to me baby

2009-10-28T17:29:00.000-06:00

Why didn’t I listen to my heart?

When she had me guessing from the start,

More and more I wonder,

Why do I still want her?

After all the love I gave to you,

All this pain and all because of you

(Chorus)

What am I supposed to do when it’s all a lie?

Where am I supposed to go when it’s dark outside?

What am I supposed to do when it’s all a lie?

Lie to me lie to me,

Lie to me lie to me,

Lie to me lie to me one last time,

Still have those letters from last fall,

And every time the phone rings,

Wish it was your call,

More and more I wonder,

Why do I still want her?

After all the love I gave to you,

All this pain I’m in because of you,

(You, you, you, you, you)

(Chorus)

What am I supposed to do when it’s all a lie?

Where am I supposed to go when it’s dark outside?

What am I supposed to do when it’s all a lie?

Lie to me lie to me,

Lie to me lie to me,

Lie to me lie to me one last time,

Why did you have to hide?

Loved you through all your lies

One thing I know is true

I’ll never stop loving you

Lovin’ you

So tell me,

What am I supposed to do when it’s all a lie?

Where am I supposed to go when it’s dark outside?

What am I supposed to do when it’s all a lie?

Won’t you Lie to me lie to me baby,

Lie to me lie to me baby,

Lie to me baby, one last time

LIE TO ME ONE LAST TIME

2009-10-28T16:47:00.003-06:00

WHAT AM I SUPPOSE TO DO, WHEN ITS ALL A LIE.

Brigitte Anne feels happy due to these following reasons

She can actually do math! ( I tried focussing on math equations instead of thinking about someone who doesnt care, and man, i'm so ready for tomorrow's test)
I made it 2 days without having a long conversation with PENN badgelY
I'm losing weight (((:
WORKING OUT *secretly*
I'm still friends with my exes (:
Slowly but surely i'm getting over him.

Its just useless now isnt it? But you're happy, and i am too. So it should be good, yes?

2009-10-27T18:08:00.002-06:00

" I hate to see you walk away but if it makes you happy, i'm happy. "

Its such a weird week last week.
2 of the ex bfs started talking to me after months of not talking they did.
which was confusing.
But if there's one thing i liked about them coming back, they made me feel like i treated them well enough for them to still want to be friends.
Even though it both didn't end to good, i'm glad to have start a better friendship.

ps. i know i'm a bitch and i need not your reminder (:

so anyway, i'm still feeling a tad sick. Everyone is being sick in school. there's like so many cases
of H1N1

btw, i have H176
hahah thanks to Kayla. its chipmunk flu! HAHA

Well whatelse can i say?

Oh, i'mma be straight up on how i feel about Penny.
YES i said his name on here cause really, its shitty to hide it.
So yea, i know how bad it sounds the way he treats me but we're not together, which means that he is not obligated to treat me nice. BUT we're friends and i do need a little more respect than what i've been treated.
Its not to say he abuses me or anything. I'm sure Penny is a nice guy.I so believe. or i wouldn't be sticking around wanting to be his friend. But he's a guy. And its just seems alot harder for them to be vocal about whats really inside.
But HONESTLY, hoping for something more between penny and is almost impossible. But i just feel a need to want to be close to him.
Like a best friend.
My dad always told me that if you want to have a best friend, be the best friend to others.

OH WELL.
i've spoken a little too much.

2009-10-26T11:23:00.001-06:00

I GIVE UP!!!
KILL ME!

without you

2009-10-22T17:01:00.005-06:00

I cant stand you but i can't live without you
You make me cry but i can't smile without you
I get so weak around you but i can't function without you
You confuse me but i can never make sense of anything without you.

I know i've said things that i may regret but all i'm gonna say now is that i really love you.
UNCONDITIONALLY.
No matter what i do, i can't stop thinking about you. I can never make it without you.
I just wished things went back to the way they are.

i don't even care if you ever understand how much you mean to me, i love you like i always did.

I love you, Penny.

its time we said goodbye

2009-10-18T09:28:00.001-06:00

im boring.
i need to get something to do.

life did get better.

2009-10-14T18:06:00.002-06:00

I'M SO HAPPPY (:

KIss and tell.

2009-10-13T17:08:00.001-06:00

i really have nothing much to say today. but
today was rather disappointing.

i just really wanna die right now.
and well yea.

2009-10-10T22:12:00.000-06:00

I'M TIRED.
UGLY AND DYING ):
its not fault i fell inlove with you and i just wanna give up!

boring.

2009-10-09T16:38:00.000-06:00

People have hot dates, wild parties or some sort of gimick on friday nights.
I have homework and loads of alone times.
I'm invited to a party but am not going cause i can't be drunk and no one will take me home.
i'm BORING. period.

2009-10-08T17:37:00.001-06:00

its snowing ):

♥♥

2009-10-06T17:39:00.002-06:00

Sawana ako habulin ang ng papasaya sa puso ko.
Parang wala na ko talaga magaga para makita mo lang yung ginagawa ko para sayo. Para lang masmasaya ka. Hindi ko naman hinige papalit salahit na ginawa ko para sayo kasi ginagawa ko yun paralang sayo. Pero habang ginagawa ko yun, parang ginagamit at laro mo lang ako.
Parang la akong tanga. Habol nang habol sayo pero alam natin na wala yun. lahat ng ginagawa natin ay para lang sayo.

Pero hindi ko na alam talaga anong gagawin ko.
Ang dame mong tanong pero lahat ng sagot ay na ssayo.

shite

2009-10-06T17:34:00.002-06:00

I've been really busy with catching up.
I have 5 tests this week.
correction, 2 test tomorrow, 3 on friday.
Project due on thursday
Art really needs catching up to do.

I feel in the mood for procrastination but i don't need it now.
I have my academic breakfast tomorrow.
I cant wait till its over. But i get eo wear my new outfit and i'm excited.

FML

☺

2009-10-03T22:23:00.002-06:00

I started the day with a trip to the doctor cause till last night, i was sick.
And well it was ... blah blah blah ...

Skipping to going to church cause it was the highlight of my day.
I know, its weird cause if you're a teenager, church is supposed to be boring and seem to be a chore. But today, its different. I actually paid attention and i can actually remember what the gospel was about. KUDOS on me for that. (:

So they were talking about marriages and divorce and such. But i really don't know why God made me listen in that whole ceremony. I feel a sense of achievement i felt happy (:
You're probably going "omg, what a religious creep". Honestly, i'm not as religious as i should and like to be but there's just something about today's Gospel.

The phrase that comes up at me listening to the priest as i sit in the pews attentively was ;
" The man leaves his mother and his father and clings to his wife to form as one"

No idea why but yea.
The priest said something for us to ponder about but i forgot what it was cause i already had the answer.
But anyways, i just had to say that. Cause i think i haven't been God-like recently and i feel so bad for not being the christian i should be.

well i'm better btw (:
after so long!!

lol

2009-10-01T13:20:00.001-06:00

i'm stupefying

2009-10-01T10:15:00.002-06:00

So last night i was talking to Kayla about how life sucks, men being dick weeds and woman being (pussy weeds?) ...

and i told her

" All because Eve had to eat the apple "

All because Eve had to eat the apple, we women have to bear children in our bodies.
All because Eve had to eat the apple, we have to leak blood from our vajajays every month like an unplumbed pipe.
All because Eve had to eat the apple, Adam had to grow his apple.

" Was she really that hungry? "

mind you not, there were like fruits falling everywhere but no, she wants to be a badass and eat the forbidden apples of wisdom.

Then, she finally realised she was naked and Adam was too.

" All because Eve had to eat the apple "

rape me in the thigh

2009-09-30T11:41:00.003-06:00

Hey again guys.
i know this is not the best time for you guys to be online. But anyways, i just wanna say good luck.
And to relieve a little stress, watch this video

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G7oGx2dImE8

I was online when Penny forced me to watch it.

hahaha
enjoy (:

2009-09-30T08:40:00.000-06:00

i've been sick
peaked at 39.8 degrees celsius

2009-09-28T16:36:00.001-06:00

Btw, i'd like to just give a quick shout out to my friends back in singapore.
HAPPY GRADUATION GUYS!!

you all look stunning!
i should have been there. But i can't ):
i just wish you guys an encouraging transition from highschool to post high school studies.
I LOVE YOU ALL!

xoxox

Happiest day ever

2009-09-28T15:53:00.002-06:00

Okay, my day started pretty retarded today.
i tried styling my hair but i ended up applying too much hair moues and its all crusty (YUCK!)
so i had to wash it out and by that time i was running late.
The weather was terrrrrrible!
The winds were so strong and cold it was driving me nuts.
So the day just got better.

Why?
cause i have no idea.
i hugged SARAH,BECCA,SERENA,KAYLA,PENNNNY! and DEANNA.
YES i love hugss (:
i passed bio. 38/60
sucks. but i wont let it ruin my day.
Then i scored 100% on math((: big achievement!!
Deanna and i are again friends.
i got 3 signatures on my yearbook!!!
hmmm
ooohh! and talked to a kinda cute guy on the bus (: HAHA
appearently his name is duncan (:

hmmm then i come home with a massive headache.
GRREEAT!

i love you guys! (:

ps, i was waiting for the bus and this happened ;

So i'm standing wth music in my ears in the cold wind. i see a bunch of grade 10 kids staring at me. like wtf? is my fly down or is there shit on my shoes or what?

so then the bus arrives and while waiting for it to stop, this guy comes to me
Confused individual : Hi bianca
me : *removes heads* what?
C.I : Are you bianca?
m: no?
C.I : oh! sorry i thought you were this girl, you look just like her
m: ok
C.I : do you know her?
m : yes, i do
C.I : do you get that often?
m : no, thats just weird.

silence

HAHAHA that was just embarrasing.
he was being all flirty too.

here's a tip buddy, dont say hi to strangers. especially when my name tag is on my bag.

Pinoy Pride.

2009-09-25T12:14:00.003-06:00

Hello guys, back to my ultimateself and reaaaly want to shop.

here's a pretty list of what i'm planning to get

Yes people, pinoy pride.

Isnt that just awesome!

2009-09-24T17:15:00.002-06:00

over and out

2009-09-24T16:44:00.005-06:00

Remember the time i gave you that special gift i've been saying for since forever?
Remember the time i stayed up to do your work when i already had 1001 things to do?
Remember the time i helped you get over her?
Remember the time i saved you from a heartache?

Well i remember, and i don't know how to forgive myself for something so stupid as in to fall for you.
Why you? why you when there were other?
I never planned too fall for you but here i am regreting it.
I'm sorry if i ever offended you by falling for you but i didn't force myself to love you. Cause if i did, i would walk away and be happy.

Why does it has to be so hard?
I just want to be friends. I dont want anything more or anything less.
i promised to be here for you whenever, i will always.

I never asked for much. i never asked for you to like me, i never asked for you to walk on water for me, all i asked was to be respected. the way i respected you and the way i should be.
I'm happy and satisfied just being your friend and i can never ask for more.

2009-09-23T17:02:00.001-06:00

Boy you drive me wild.

2009-09-21T16:46:00.000-06:00

I still love you no matter how much i know we will never be that way

2009-09-20T16:09:00.000-06:00

HOW NOW BROWN COW?

2009-09-19T23:17:00.002-06:00

What do you see when you gaze into my eyes
cause all i see is love but it reflects back to me like a one way mirror

here's to you, you scunty little bitch!

2009-09-18T21:17:00.003-06:00

Well, i was having an awesome day today having to talk to a certain person.

But what would i be blogging about if all i did was swoon over him?
well, it was after biology when i went to my locker instead of wait for deanna. Cause i thought since my locker was near the class, she should just go there immediately. i Just wanted to put my books away before lunch. So i went to my locker and then i saw Penny, cause we share lockers.
Just so happen skankface walks to me telling me i'm a bitch for ditching her. So it was ok till she fucking repeats it with group of boys.
"brigitte, you're such a bitch today. you ditched me"

I was getting pissed a straight up i said
IF I'M SUCH A BITCH THAN WHY ARE YOU TALKING TO ME!!

well here's where it starts.

Dear scuntbag,
Before you choose to call me a bitch about something so petty like that, think about what you did.
Since i met you, you've always been ditching me for your stupid men toys. Yes, men toys. Cause really, you don't love these boys, you play them like little toy soldiers, You think i believe you when you say you don't flirt with guys when you have a boyfriend?
Honestly, FUCK YOU.
you're just a scanty little fuckface whore who needs everyone's attention.
And for you to say i'm not good in relationships, who are you to say such statement when you are the one who sleeps around with your boys and show of your body. Yea, i'm sure you're good for one purpose.A CHEAP DISPOSABLE TOY! Yea, that's what you are.
You don't care about anyone else but you.
You want everyone to care about you and only you.
Well fuck it bitch, i tried sticking up for you and all that shit but what's the use when really, you're the ass in the picture?
I just realised how many awesome people i met after you left. i'm free from your stupid little world where only you matter.
I tried to care but you're just really a fuck.
you're useless. really. cause you can't bear to see me with more friends than you. cause all you do is seduce guys to be into you.
YOU ARE JUST A LOOSE WHORE, SO GO SHOVE A TREE TRUNK TO FUCK YOURSELF.
i'm done with assholes like you. You dont deserve friends. you deserve to be fucked with.

2009-09-17T17:09:00.002-06:00

Man, i really dont know whats going on with my life. LOL
i'm just so BLAH!

i need to talk to lynette!
TALK TO MEE!

2009-09-16T18:51:00.001-06:00

Sa lahat ng ikinakaawa ko sa sarili ko ay ni mahal kita ng todotodo.
Pero kahit anong gawin ko, isang babe na walang sarilingrespeto ang pag trato mo sakin.

Ang sakit pero anong pwede kong gawin?

2009-09-14T17:24:00.001-06:00

Ok, i havent really been updating properly.

So about Saturday, i went to penny's house in the morning. lol
i gave an excuse to my parents that he'll be teaching me Bio but actually just
we just chilled, listened to music and listened to him play guitar. lol

i loved it. it was an awesome day ((:

2009-09-13T12:16:00.000-06:00

There's a difference when you say you love me

2009-09-12T20:11:00.000-06:00

little by little you're slowly etching my little heart

2009-09-12T19:58:00.000-06:00

walang kataposan

2009-09-12T19:31:00.002-06:00

nais ko lang isang araw na gusto ko ay mabuti sapat na para sa iyo.

Pero hindi mo makikita yun hangang nandito ako.

Endlessly

2009-09-12T18:24:00.000-06:00

Late at night you called on a phone,
We talked about the day,
When you found out he was cheating.
You tell that it hurts to the bone,
To trust someone that way.
To find that he was deceving,
And I know I've always just been your friend,
But if you look my way,
I'll make sure you'll never hurt again.

Do you know I exist, just to promise you this,
Endlessly to be true to you,
And if you answer my prayer,
I cross my heart and I'd swear
Endlessly to be true to you,

And if you'd only see,
How beautiful you and I would be, endlessly.
Ohh, oh yeah.
I remember when you fell in love,
I could not believe..
That it was not with me
I sent a secret prayer up above,
And put my heart away.
So that you could be free.
And I know that right now you're broken in two,
But did you know my heart's been broken since that day I met you.

Do you know I exist, just to promise you this,
Endlessly to be true to you,
And if you answer my prayer,
I cross my heart and I'd swear
Endlessly to be true to you,

And in my sweetest dream,
You've learn to put your faith in me, endlessly,
Sometimes the thing you need,
Is the one thing you can't see
If you put your faith in me,
How beautiful you and I would be.

Do you know I exist, just to promise you this,
Endlessly to be true to you,
And if you answer my prayer,
I cross my heart and I'd swear
Endlessly to be true to you,

And if you'd only see
How beautiful you and I would be, endlessly

2009-09-12T00:51:00.001-06:00

i really am not pregnant (:
yay me!

2009-09-10T16:49:00.001-06:00

I have had alot of things to do in school.
With social life aside. I'm pretty focused on my stuff.
i'm trying to grasp concepts and shit. but also, i missed 3 homeworks already):
Speaking of that, i messed up math. so dumb.
hmmm
what else.

oh.

MEN!
TSK! *rolls eyes*

PS

I GOT MY PERIOD!!!
YAY!

2009-09-08T18:09:00.000-06:00

I've been too busy lately to blog.
School has just started 6 days ago and stuff.
blah.
i dont know.
Will update as soon as i have things to do?

i know what you did last summer

2009-09-03T18:11:00.001-06:00

menmenmenmenmenmenmenmenmenmenmenmenmenmenmenmenmenmenmenmenmenmenmen
menmenmenmenmenmenmenmenmenmenmenmenmenmenmenmenmenmenmenmenmenmenmenmen
menmenmenmenmenmenmenmenmenmenmenmenmenmenmenmenmenmenmenmenmenmenmen
menmenmenmenmenmenmenmenmenmenmenmenmenmenmenmenmenmenmenmenmenmenmenmen
menmenmenmenmenmenmenmenmenmenmenmenmenmenmenmenmenmenmenmenmenmenmen

Everything is about men
STUPID!

I HATE MEN!
thank you very much

2009-09-02T18:02:00.000-06:00

I HATE FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL!
i never liked it. Though i think it was pretty manageable considering i didn't go for any class cause i was getting my time tables changed.

Men-free (:

2009-09-01T15:16:00.002-06:00

I'm going back to school tomorrow, sadly.
But on the brighter side, i had my head straighten up a little.
With my priorities aligned, i am hoping to do well this year.
Not bothering about relationship and stuff like that, i think im gonna start the year just fine (:

and it too late now to say all the wonderful things i thought of you.

2009-08-28T14:25:00.002-06:00

Somethings are better to look back upon.
And baby you're one of it

iniibig kita.

2009-08-28T14:16:00.001-06:00

Will you be there when i fall?

wo ai ni

2009-08-28T14:15:00.001-06:00

Don't leave me right after you played me.
I know you're better than that.

vos amos

2009-08-28T14:05:00.002-06:00

Is a little love and honesty to much to ask for?

ti amo

2009-08-28T13:58:00.001-06:00

Do you feel what i feel when you bury my feelings deep under like as if it doesn't matter.

te amo

2009-08-28T13:48:00.001-06:00

Will it be too late till we realise we had something?

ich liebe dich

2009-08-28T13:45:00.001-06:00

Sometimes we look too far for something that is just right in front of us.

2009-08-28T13:26:00.003-06:00

What is the price we have to pay for a small bit of happiness?

Why

2009-08-28T13:11:00.002-06:00

It's hurt to know that whatever you do, you can never make that person love you.
All you can do is hope they're happy.
i know its cliche but what else can i say?

its magic

2009-08-28T12:17:00.004-06:00

i love you.
But i can't wait forever.

we'll be fine.